NaNoWriMo 2017

Join me as I talk about my plans for National Novel Writing Month 2017

National Novel Writing Month. That time of year when would be, aspiring, and esteemed authors all unite for a month of madness. To write 50,000 words of a novel in 30 days. 1,667 words a day.

I have participated in Nanowrimo since 2014, I have won in 2015 and 2016 (winning just means getting to the 50k target, not like, winning a prize for how great your novel is!). 2014 I did not win because I was woefully unprepared for the notion of writing that many words in one project in one month.

See, the thing is, if you’ve read my other posts, you know that I have issues with procrastination and committing to projects. It’s not that I don’t want to write, it’s not that I find writing a burden or a chore. It’s that I find a million ways to avoid sitting down to do something difficult. Writing is difficult, I won’t lie. It might be enjoyable, it might be fun, but it is bloody hard.

So, here I sit, trying once more to be prepared, organised and committed to this project. My theory is that if I start the project now, and do a little bit every day, by the time November 1st rolls around I will be interested enough, committed enough, and determined enough to follow through and finish.

This could backfire, I could use all my inspiration and drive before NaNoWriMo even starts, or it could work stupendously well and I could end up with a manuscript of 100k words.

Only time will tell…

If you would like to see me write a daily blog in November to chronicle my journey through NaNoWriMo, please let me know!

 

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The Graveyard Of Dead Projects

The place where good writing goes to die

So, in my mind, there are rooms. Each room is a part of my life, there’s a room for work (right now, the lack thereof), a room for relationships/friendships, a room for the tv shows I’m currently binge watching and then, there’s a graveyard.

Having a mental graveyard sounds really morbid, but stay with me here. This graveyard is full of dead projects. The writing projects I have started and loved, then gone back to a day, a week or a month later and absolutely fucking hated.

This graveyard is littered with bodies of work, of varying sizes, shapes and mediums, all of which had such potential for a while and then suddenly *POOF* nothing.

The “nothing” is the point at which the idea suddenly looks awful, or lame, or so cliched as to be painful.

This graveyard haunts me, because I have wanted to be a writer for as long as I can remember, I used to write stories as a kid and then never finish them and as I have gotten older, the size of the unfinished project has grown with me.

Right now I am feverishly researching the possibilities that writing a high fantasy series holds. I have been reading more high fantasy recently and want to explore the possibilities of writing it. However it requires…planning. Something which I love to start and never follow through with.

And therein lies the problem: planning, and following through.

Giving myself the illusion of being organised and motivated isn’t quite the same as actually being organised and motivated. To actually be organised and motivated, one must have discipline, and that is something I very much lack.

At random intervals I resolve to be different, be better, and while I do try, it rarely lasts longer than a week.

I was talking to my cousin the other day, over a very nice brunch, and we were talking about the fact that our mothers both have adult ADD, and we seem to exhibit the same symptoms, which would be an excellent way to explain why I am so seemingly unable to get my shit together, but if I’m honest I don’t really think that’s the issue. I almost certainly have ADD, but being aware of the problem means that I should be able to map out strategies to combat the issue and power through it, after all, knowledge is power.

But, what if that knowledge is actually holding me back? What if knowing that I most likely have ADD is what stops me from succeeding? What if subconsciously I’m shrugging my shoulders and saying “well that’s just my brain and there’s nothing I can do to change it”?

Back to that graveyard, where I have abandoned some really promising writing projects when the initial buzz of starting a new project has passed and it no longer feels new, shiny and exciting to take it out and work on it. Am I just like a kid who plays with a toy a few times and then throws it under their bed? And is that ADD or something else? Am I just spoilt for choices? Do I have too many options for things to do at any given moment of the day? And if that’s the case, do I just choose the things that are the easiest?

Do I binge watch shows on Netflix not because I truly enjoy them but because they require much less brain power than writing a new story? Does binge watching a show give me that rush of doing something new without having to actually do anything?

Is that part of my brain chemistry? Do I crave that rush of “new and exciting” and am I getting it from absorbing other stories through watching or reading them instead of creating them myself? Even when my passion lay with writing, maybe I choose not to because I’m essentially lazy? Maybe I just lack discipline.

I am not going to sign off by promising to be better or new, or more organised, because there are blog posts on that here and here, all I will say is that maybe one day I will stop procrastinating, and start really planning, writing and succeeding.